Sunday, May 31, 2009

You know, sometimes I wake up with this feeling that I don't belong where ever I am at right now.
Its kinda weird.

I look around me and I realised that I don't have someone I could really be with like back then.
Apparently, my best memories of good friends seems to come from my primary school days.
Seriously, no offence to my secondary school mates.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm not doing things right.
Like I didn't do this until I started hanging out with you etc.
I don't think its me.
I really want to be me.
The me that I used to see, so happy and all.

Sankarsh is right.
Sometimes the wrong people lead you the wrong way.
But if these are the wrong people, then who are the right ones?
In this world of fakeness, where and how can I find what I'm missing?

I don't know.
I feel very lost right now.
I want to restart my whole teenage life.
I don't want to make mistakes anymore.
I can't see myself getting hurt everytime at the end of the day.
I can't, I don't.
What am I supposed to do now?

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Tomorrow is the biggest hurdle for me in my secondary school life.
My own mother tongue language.
I really hope I can get a B3 for my paper 2 !
Well, my paper 1 is always a sure pass.
A distinction is also possible.
I will not be complacent.
I'm so bringing my dictionary tomorrow.
Ain't gonna care what the others say about me trying hard.
Mother Tongue O level here I come :D
I'm so pwn-ing you :D

*thanks eliewnilwehttam for boosting my confidence in myself :D
You're so nice to me.